About 2 weeks ago all my remaining grief, depression, doom & gloom, despair, pessimism, discouragement, negativity, "chip on my shoulder", lack of drive, lack of enthusiasm, lack of motivation, over emotionalism, feeble mindedness, rebelliousness, resentment, dismantling & long-haul exhaustion - all of this utter defeatism - was instantly gone. I have progressively been improving incrementally since I bottomed out last May (maybe 40% better overall) and seeking God for a personal revival. I still had a long road ahead of me, but I was making consistent progress. Then, out of nowhere, that remaining 60% was instantly gone... like one switch had been turned off and another switch had been turned on. Instantly hope, peace, joy, enthusiasm, optimism, drive, motivation, eagerness, strong mindedness, less overly emotional... it all was instantaneously back!!! I've been "remantled"! Glory to God!! Thank You Jesus!!! Thank You Holy Spirit!!! Revival is happening!!! One of the main worship songs I have been singing everyday is "I Thank God", and 2 of the main verses are "The devil lost another one! I am free! I am free!" and "Get up! Get up! Get up! Get up outta that grave!" Wow, I'm living that song right now. The devil came inches away from destroying me, but "The devil lost another one. I am free! I am free!". I spent 5 years digging my grave with the shovel of exhaustion, but as I was laying down in my grave my spirit could hear God's Spirit saying, "Get up! Get up! Get up! Get up outta that grave!" Now I'm dancing on that grave!! Actually those are some of the lyrics of the other worship song I have been singing everyday (called Goodbye Yesterday): "Again and again and again and again You rescued me out of the mess I was in. I traded my sorrow for something to sing. Now, I'm dancin' on the grave that I once lived in." All I can say is that I was dead, and now I'm alive again. I had never experienced a "Prodigal Son" type of crisis in my life. I've always been more like the Prodigal Son's brother - the "good son" - that loyally & faithfully stayed by his Father's side. But after 5 years of being dismantled I "took my inheritance" and was inches away from squandering it all when the fear of God brought me back to my senses, and I relented & repented. I'm beyond blessed that God is slow to anger, quick to forgive, and abounding in love. His kindness leads to our repentance. PRODIGAL DUG has returned! God is turning my survival into my revival! PTL! I tried to do my best to communicate my "train wreck" last year as it was happening. Even in my mess I tried to stay transparent & authentic. For all those who reached out to me and, like firefighters, ran into a situation that most people are running away from (and there were so many who reached out to me & prayed for me) >>> from the bottom of my heart THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! You helped save my life!! And to all those who gave up on me... I totally understand... I gave up on me too. I get it... who voluntarily wants to jump into a dumpster fire!! I totally understand. But for all those who ran in with whatever water you had to douse the flames (whether it was with gallons or the few sips you had in your water bottle) >>> YOU DID IT... GOD USED YOU IMMENSELY TO PUT THE FIRE OUT AND SAVE YOUR BROTHER'S LIFE!! I'M FOREVER PROFOUNDLY GRATEFUL!! By the grace & mercy of God - PRODIGAL DUG has returned. Revival is here ❤️ ❤️ ❤️
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