This is a picture of me 14 months ago. I was becoming the healthiest I have ever been in my life during a 3 month period in which God had radically healed me... then I imploded after my Dad died... I have always said that the most dangerous place a person can ever get is where they don't care anymore. I got to that point. Nothing left to give, and nothing left in me to care anymore. I hit rock bottom then dug down 10 more feet. But the amazing thing about God is that He is on the mountain top and He is in the valley, and He is the rock bottom pits (and even 10 ft deeper). When I stopped digging my grave, and started praying for a personal revival He started helping me climb inch by inch up the walls of that pit. I'm a few feet up the wall, and I can sense that the tide has changed... I'm nowhere near the top, but He is slowly (and quickly) changing my survival into a revival. I still have a lot of depression, but it's giving way to a restoration of joy 3 to 4 days each week. I have kinda gone from total depression to sorta bipolar (lows & highs). It is the craziest thing I have ever experienced.... it's an emotional rollercoaster, but I'm definitely getting better... getting healthier... and looking at pictures of where I was just before I imploded... and I'm starting to care again... starting to be filled up with the Holy Spirit again... starting to feel a revival tsunami coming on... starting to look forward to a new year and a new era of personal revival and thriving again... starting to look forward to dusting off my workout equipment and start slinging some weights around again. Thank you God for being slow to anger, quick to forgive, and abounding in love!! I'm ready to get back in shape again.... but not today... after the holidays and all those delicious Christmas cookies hahaha!! Going from survival to revival =)
Psalms 139: 7-14
7 "Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well."
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